I’ve been feeling very brief pangs of nausea – not in the morning, really, though I know that “morning sickness” can happen any time of day. Today lunch time could not come soon enough. I was hungry at 10:30 for lunch (despite my 8 am big bowl of oatmeal) and by 11:15 I gave in and made myself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich (I never eat this!). I sat and watched Project Runway while I took a break from my cooking and ate my lunch. My hunger was bordering on nausea at “lunch” time and then this afternoon I’ve been feeling a bit nauseous too. However, it could be the nasty food I am making for my client (a puree of canned salmon, white rice and artichoke hearts… among other nasty items) that I keep smelling.
My mom called me this morning to ask if I wanted a dresser/buffet that her neighbor is selling at a yardsale. She thought it would make a good changing table – with a lot of work. This thing is in BAD shape, but she does have an eye for furniture that can be refinished… And it was free, so it sounded like she really wanted to take it and make a project of refinishing it for us. I gave in, though I am a bit annoyed that she can’t restrain herself and not buy (or aquire) things before I get to the second trimester at least. I told her that she better have a plan for it in case anything happens and I lose the pregnancy that does not involve me seeing it. And I told her she had to promise not to buy anything else. She did not promise. She just said “I’ll take all the risk”. Sure you will. I have a feeling I am going to have to go to therapy specifically to figure out how to deal with my mother during the pregnancy and afterwards. She already makes me totally crazy, and I just see it getting worse from here on out. There’s no point in expecting her to change, so how I am going to deal with her without losing my mind entirely?
Based on my highly scientific calculations I think I am 6 weeks today (i.e. the embryo was created 4 weeks ago today). They don’t give me a lot of specifics at my RE’s office – no number of weeks and days, no specific beta numbers, etc. I guess maybe it is good – gives me fewer things to obsess about. My inclination would to be to compare my numbers to whatever I can find on the internet. I may be saving myself some valuable time and mental energy by just not knowing.
